I do it. Maybe you do it. I know a lot of us out there do it. It’s horrible. It’s horrible even when you’re in the middle of it. All that guilt and ill-feeling and self-loathing and for what… so you can pack your face? Bleah.
That’s where I’ve been for the past month. I have different triggers. When I feel lonely, isolated, unheard and those feelings pile up… when I don’t have enough time for myself, when my marriage isn’t in its best shape… When Mini Terrorist is being exhaustingly difficult all day… yeah. Those days. Those are the days where before or after dinner I end up in the kitchen stuffing my face over and over and over again. I hate it.
Two days ago, I made myself promise and get real that I was totally done with it. I feel awful in my own skin and I’m worth more than this and what the heck kind of example am I? Yesterday was perfect. No binge-eating period. I gave myself a one day long Shakeology cleanse and that was that. I fell asleep feeling hungry (like we’re supposed to), slept WAY better than I have been and best of all, yesterday didn’t end in any self-deprecating thinking. WOOHOO!
Today was harder. I almost fell off the wagon. However, one of the best tools that I know of when this is setting in is to GET YOURSELF OUT OF THE HOUSE!!!!! So I did. I took Mini to the park.
There are times where you’re going to really have to fight yourself to get out the door and it’s easy to make excuses. You’re too tired, you’re not wearing makeup, you haven’t showered… put on a hat and just get out. Even if you’re just driving around aimlessly for an hour – it seriously helps. And actually, driving around listening to your happy music can do wonders for your soul! You just need to find something else to fill you up other than food.